romcoms are going out of style

i am writing about these northern lights,
fantasise that we had something troubled
i romanticise about stranger eyes
trying to redeem my victim's lies
and all my I's,
pseudo-charismatic like a broken window

as i grew up, in the midst of things
a symphony i've orchestrated,
live and die, but to my surprise
i can hardly see or open up my eyes,
choke a burning lie
feeling self-assured like i kept on breathing

pre-chorus:
i am falling now,
fine, i'll go

chorus:
of all these things that i desire,
nothing puts out my burning fire
it's christmas time, december cares
baby, take me higher

verse:
these city lights don't trust my eyes,
real friends are hard to find,
i lower down, try to find
i am broken, beaten by the northern winds
can you wind me down?
trying to get better as i open starstruck lies

a life as me, can you see?
i'm beginning to feel you under my skin
please take me in,
care for me and turn it back and hold me tight
i open bloodshot eyes
as a gentleman i turned out beat up

pre-chorus:
i am falling now,
fine, i'll go

chorus:
of all these things that i desire,
nothing puts out my burning fire
it's christmas time, december cares
baby, take me higher

bridge:
and i'll be burning everything
that i once cared about
you're a critic, damned that the sun is shining
i'm an artist, can't you see i'm trying?
crying out for help
crying out for you to come and get me on my feet again

pre-chorus:
i am falling now,
fine, i'll go

chorus:
of all these things that i desire,
nothing puts out my burning fire
it's christmas time, december cares
baby, take me higher